give me a fucking sign and ill make it out of here alive!

Lately ive been going through a difficult time in my life.... see, things are not going the way i want them to go!
Anxiety and boredom are becoming a part of me!.... boredom? yeah, i feel that my life has becomed monotonous just the way as it was back home! everyone keeps asking: "dude youre in barcelona, shouldnt you be enjoying yourself? , youre on the other part of the world...."
YEah i know that.... and im forever greatful with life... for i have lived, traveled, experienced, and done lots of things most people just dream about....
But im in a time when everything just keeps freaking me out. Getting old, having different responsibilites, missing the shit out of my friends and family.... they all mix up and play with my day feelings.
Its hard to have left my life (25 years of what i was accostumed) and having a new different life.
Trying to know new people (which is hard), not feeling myself most of the time... it dissapoints me.
Why am i with all this emotional bullshit? well, i have always been emotional about my life....
i know and hold dear that things happen for a reason. Life spins you up and down and takes you everywhich way.... and you can just avoid this.
I know Im in barcelona for a reason............ i just want to find out what it is............ i dont know what life has prepared for me.
But like i said before... ill say it again ANXIETY KEEPS KILLING ME!
so ill end this with:

please give me a fuckin sign and ill swear that ill make it out of here alive!

peace

Anxiety is killing me

three years

'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read

Three years, is a long, long time
Your heart beats close to mine
There's no wrong or right
When it breaks
It breaks so miserably
I'm leaving constantly
You always said
"I feel dead, nothing left for me"

'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read
I refuse to let this bury me

Three years, were the best of times
A time of sacrifice
There's no wrong or right
When it breaks
It breaks so miserably
My world got in the way
I've paid the price
The constant lies, opened up my eyes

'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read
I refuse to let this bury me
'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read
I think about you constantly

All the obstacles in my head now
I feel nothing, what was said
I hear nothing, and I feel no pain
All the obstacles in my head

I look at life through black eyes now
My mind, it screams to slow down
I hit a wall every single day
My worst fears, staring back at me
When it breaks, breaks, breaks so miserably
I'm leaving constantly
You always said
"I feel dead, nothing left for me"

so grown up

I'm ready for the simple life right now
Connect and with points. I welcome it cause I've been taking notes
And every thing i write is telling me to prepare.
In this age of fear and deities no one seems to be scared
I swear I hear laughter (laughter). We're dying to prove it wrong.
It is natural law. Knowledge equated with advance. This was our first step back
And now we're on this road,
Oblivious to this journeys end. But in the side streets and alleys that we know,
We've waited and wrote. On my mark we're stepping out from the trash and shadows.
Grab all you can
On 3 we're stepping out and we're taking all we can
1. Look at where we've been
2. Gods won't fill the void within
3. No more drawing ranks
Don't draw ranks

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Pues he dejado esto un poco al aire, ultimamente he estado estudiando bastante en todo momento. Estar en una ciudad como esta te cansa y te quedas sin tiempo (siempre hay que hacer). Pues cosas nuevas, me han aceptado para seguir el doctorado aca en Barcelona. Lo estare realizando en Cancer de niños, "neuroblastoma", una forma de cancer bastante agresiva y que afecta a los niños desde antes que nazca. Me complace hacer esto debido a que en la vida debes encontrar algo que te motive y mas si estas trabajando o te dedicaras a trabajar por otras personas. En este mundo hay mucha gente egoista, yo creo que si das la vida de recompensara.

En otras noticias, estare hiendo a un par de conciertos pronto y estare posteando aca mi critica de cada uno. Entre estos voy a ir a ver a Melvins (no me pienso perder esto).

Algo mas, pues me volvi loco comprando cosas para mi cuarto! la verdad, yo soy muy de estar en mi cuarto! (asi era en guatemala) aca no me acostumbraba del todo! asi que decidi invertir un poco.!

hasta la proxima dudes!