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so i have come to the point where im gonna stop complaining. I actually learned alot through this couple of weeks: how im growing up, how i dont have to fullfill no one elses expeculations nor expectatives. And how i have to live my life giving my best every single day... as if it was my last.
Why? cuz i love my life!
Its funny how the name of my blog is "my life.... my own way".. and how i just simply lost touch with my inner peace and thoughts.
YEah i do things the way i like..

i remembered my time at the last TFS show (2008 october) in maryland. I was really feeling down.. and i remember how Stephen (singer) gave a speach about life:

"theres something thats been on my mind...... all the people inside this room.... all of us are mortal.... all of us are going to die...and that sounds pretty morbid...

We go out through out living our lives as if we are gonna die in 80 years or 50 years....or 7 years....but thats the most unsure thing in this entire world......

The point to all of this.....the point to this song... is that you have to do something good with your life....you cant waste it... you cant waste it for a second....or a minute..... you cant think of when im tired, or when will i get married.... or when im happy...or whatever.... you have to do it now!

this life is precious ... and i wish that in every single one of you ...


This words are really wise!

ITS TIME TO WISE UP.... enjoy life.... as it passes by!

PEACE

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PEACE

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miles to go (POSITIVITY!)

When I fall I get right back up again and I walk it off
Because life's much too short to be held back by my mistakes
And when I struggle I try my best to find the lessons learned
They get me through and help me give my best

You're running from your problems and getting nowhere
But you can't forget your dreams
You'll never reach the goals you've set
Unless you try to take the risk
Can you take the chance?

You watched all your efforts get wiped away
And washed out with the tide
Don't let it kill the hope you feel inside
Let's get it straight you need to get back up and try again
Because sometimes the only path to take
Is the hardest one to walk

Last shot at our mistakes, the time is now to set them straight
With miles to go will you take the risk?
The choice is yours, are you willing to take the chance?

With miles left to go, will you take the risk?
Because the only path to take is the hardest one to walk

give me a fucking sign and ill make it out of here alive!

Lately ive been going through a difficult time in my life.... see, things are not going the way i want them to go!
Anxiety and boredom are becoming a part of me!.... boredom? yeah, i feel that my life has becomed monotonous just the way as it was back home! everyone keeps asking: "dude youre in barcelona, shouldnt you be enjoying yourself? , youre on the other part of the world...."
YEah i know that.... and im forever greatful with life... for i have lived, traveled, experienced, and done lots of things most people just dream about....
But im in a time when everything just keeps freaking me out. Getting old, having different responsibilites, missing the shit out of my friends and family.... they all mix up and play with my day feelings.
Its hard to have left my life (25 years of what i was accostumed) and having a new different life.
Trying to know new people (which is hard), not feeling myself most of the time... it dissapoints me.
Why am i with all this emotional bullshit? well, i have always been emotional about my life....
i know and hold dear that things happen for a reason. Life spins you up and down and takes you everywhich way.... and you can just avoid this.
I know Im in barcelona for a reason............ i just want to find out what it is............ i dont know what life has prepared for me.
But like i said before... ill say it again ANXIETY KEEPS KILLING ME!
so ill end this with:

please give me a fuckin sign and ill swear that ill make it out of here alive!

peace

Anxiety is killing me

three years

'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read

Three years, is a long, long time
Your heart beats close to mine
There's no wrong or right
When it breaks
It breaks so miserably
I'm leaving constantly
You always said
"I feel dead, nothing left for me"

'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read
I refuse to let this bury me

Three years, were the best of times
A time of sacrifice
There's no wrong or right
When it breaks
It breaks so miserably
My world got in the way
I've paid the price
The constant lies, opened up my eyes

'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read
I refuse to let this bury me
'Cause the writing on the wall
The words that I can't read
I think about you constantly

All the obstacles in my head now
I feel nothing, what was said
I hear nothing, and I feel no pain
All the obstacles in my head

I look at life through black eyes now
My mind, it screams to slow down
I hit a wall every single day
My worst fears, staring back at me
When it breaks, breaks, breaks so miserably
I'm leaving constantly
You always said
"I feel dead, nothing left for me"

so grown up

I'm ready for the simple life right now
Connect and with points. I welcome it cause I've been taking notes
And every thing i write is telling me to prepare.
In this age of fear and deities no one seems to be scared
I swear I hear laughter (laughter). We're dying to prove it wrong.
It is natural law. Knowledge equated with advance. This was our first step back
And now we're on this road,
Oblivious to this journeys end. But in the side streets and alleys that we know,
We've waited and wrote. On my mark we're stepping out from the trash and shadows.
Grab all you can
On 3 we're stepping out and we're taking all we can
1. Look at where we've been
2. Gods won't fill the void within
3. No more drawing ranks
Don't draw ranks